After the crappy start to my new year, I must admit that I was excited when I read the first rumors about referrals. I actually let myself get excited and thought that maybe there really was going to be a speed up and that the CC@@ was finally getting their butt in gear. Rumors were pointing to a 3/23/06 cutoff off date. I should have known that it was too good to be true.
Today, the RQ site said they it is looking more like two days instead of the original 23. I felt so sad when I read that. Sad for myself and everyone still so far from a referral. But I felt really sad for those with a March '06 LID. I have been following so many of their stories for so long now and my heart just breaks for them.
When I first got a singles slot and began preparing my dossier, I found myself addicted to reading the blogs of those in line ahead of me. Although I've never met any of these women in person, I feel connected to them. They have shared their hopes, dreams, families and heartbreaks with so many in the adoption community. I've laughed at their funny stories and cried with them when they were sad. These blogs are what help me to endure the longest wait of my life.
I pray that things do speed up. Sooner. Not later.